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The star of something magical

2018 changed my life forever.  From the moment he was placed in my arms i knew he would be special. What mother wouldn’t say that, really? But to me he was all that mattered. My little Bear, who smelled like sunshine first thing in the morning; you know, that smell when you first step outside on a bright, sunny morning; thats what he smelt like.  He had this tiny, boopable nose that scrunched up when he slept. His tiny little fingers were so strong that i couldn’t get them out from my messy hair. The way he growled when he ate was the silliest thing. The pregnancy was so hard with him, I almost lost him so many times, but it didn’t matter anymore, because there he was. He didnt cry, in fact he was fast asleep when he was born. So quiet that i freaked out, worrying why he wasn’t screaming like you see babies do on tv. He was fine, it was just the drugs they gave me for my blood pressure that made him come out that way.  I remember thinking to myself “gee, if he came out like this then h